Nicole Virtue

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Instalation by Nicole

Istalation Detail by Nicole

Self Portrait by Nicole

 

I find my work to be in a constant state of remaking.  As if it is this nebulous thing that shifts and changes even as I make it.  It is hard for me to pin a meaning on it as my ideas about it are also in a constant state of change.  One moment I think it is about obsession, the next compulsion, and, a day later, chaos and control.  I have come to realize my work encompasses all those ideas and more. 

My paintings consist of self-portraits that deal with the ideas behind color association and facial expression.  In this first series, I am emphasizing both aspects, showing emotion through mark making, color, and expression.  Showing emotion is not something that comes easily to me and my coping method comes out in these paintings and my writing.  My installation is another aspect of how I cope with emotions.  The writing on the wall originally began as a method to help me concentrate, but it has grown into a way of expressing my emotions without fear of repercussions.  I can write anything and everything I want in this script and I never have to worry about hurting someone else.  This process of releasing emotions continues to manifest itself in my everyday life and so, I have provided a glimpse of the compulsive behavior that exists as a permanent part of me.  It is so strong a compulsion that even the walls become an accessible surface for writing.  By creating this art, I allow myself to work through my emotions and bring myself back under control again.